"I hate bliss", she said.
Wow. I have really screwed this kid up. Has she picked up on the fact that I am completely unable to experience happiness of any kind in even seemingly the best of times?
Turns out that she was talking about the inferiority of the Bliss brand of Hershey's chocolate as compared to Dove. So go on ahead and ignore all of that other stuff up there in the previous paragraph.
I should have known better than to think that she was talking passionately about anything other than sweets. But it did really throw me to hear that word coming out of her mouth. So I started taking stock of how often and under what circumstances I use the word.
Shockingly, I use it a lot. And in regards to really stupid bullshit. Here's a sampling of stuff that followed the words "I hate..."
- Fruity teas
- The keyboard on this computer
- Daylight Savings Time
- St. Patrick's Day
- This intersection. (Why the hell is there no turn on red?)
- Red cabbage
- Jay Leno
- These jeans
- Notre Dame
- Our newspaper delivery "boy". (Who happens to be a 50 year old woman who never gets here before 9:00am.)
- Black appliances
So then I tried to scrub the word out of my vocabulary and found myself saying "can't stand" instead, which I'm not sure is much better. Anyway, I think that might just be missing the larger point of why I let stupid little things get to me so much.
I should try to think of this as a teachable moment, an opportunity to really own my spirit and speak my truth.
Except I really hate that shit.